Some days,
I just want to hold some
Body.
Some days,
I just want to hold
Myself.
And some days,
I just want some body
To hold me.
But most days,
The first and the last
Are on hold.
I’m growing weary,
So often being on hold.
I’m growing tired,
Of being all I have to hold,
While on hold,
on my own.
Post-a-day 2021
Aimlessly I pace, pause, glance…, repeat… until I realize that it is not aimlessly after all… merely fruitlessly…
“What is my aim?” I ask, originally expecting an answer about what topic to use for writing…
“To provide beautiful inspiration through new perspectives,” is the reply, clearly referencing more than just tonight’s aim of finding a topic about which to write…
So, we’ll roll with this idea…
“Did I know this already?”
“Yes, I believe so… perhaps you just set it aside with all the off-and-on panic you temporarily embraced, and forgot its depth for a while…, but you knew it already, yes.”
……
I seem to have done this much lately, letting fear and concerns get in the way of what I want to do in the world with my life, what I am almost committed to doing… perhaps it is because I’m not committed to doing it that I allow myself to push it aside(?)… yes, that would not surprise me…
Fear and concern show up, and, instead of allowing them to be expressed and then move onward, I have embraced them a bit here and there… fortunately, I always seem to let them go, however, I think I could use some work on letting them go much sooner than I have been doing.
Every time I release the fear involved in something, say photography, I end up doing something spectacular or having something spectacular happen to or for me…, so I think it is high time I spent a bit more attention on creating a commitment to providing beautiful inspiration through new perspectives in what I do, and to allowing fear and concern to express themselves and then be released immediately…
I can do this, I know, so let’s just do it already. 🙂
Smiles away! 🙂
Post-a-day 2019
hannah ananas 