(It kind of makes me think of slipcovers and slip dresses…slip-thoughts)
Do you ever notice yourself making a sort of Freudian slip in your mind?
I know we have them all over the place in our spoken, verbal language, but what about before the spoken part, before the words leave our lips… does it still count then?
Today, while driving to check on my friend’s lovely cat, I was considering a piece of a conversation I’d just had, one which has repeated often recently.
I live in a yoga studio.
When people discover this, they often ask if I do yoga there just all the time.
The answer, of course, is, “No.”
Why would my life be so predictable?… we know me well enough to know things are never quite so simple in my life.
Anyway, when this happens, I tell people how I actually prefer practicing a different type of yoga – there are certainly aspects of this one that I love and that I love doing, but I don’t love doing the typical class of this type of yoga… it’s just not my style when I’m looking for yoga.
Usually, when I’m looking for yoga, I’m looking for stretchy yoga.
And, if I’m looking for stretch practice or help, I think of stretchy yoga.
So the two ideas, yoga and stretch, usually go together for me.
The yoga where I live is a bit difficult to do, at times, and you never know if you’re walking into a really tough class or an easy one.
They’re great – don’t get me wrong – but a work-out is not what I have in mind when I’m thinking about doing some yoga… I’m thinking about stretching… a lot.
So, anyway, I explained this in the conversation, right?
Thinking about it in the car, afterward, I ended up pausing to focus on traffic and maneuvering through it with care, and I sort of held my place in the conversation analysis by repeating one particular phrase over and over again.
It became a sort of mantra, as often happens when I need to pause a mental analysis briefly.
I continued repeating it rather passively in my mind, not paying much attention to whatever was going on with the words inside my head, trusting that they’ll spark the right memory, whenever I return focus to them…
After a few blocks of driving, I was able to refocus on my inner dialogue.
… And I couldn’t quite figure out what on Earth I was talking about inside my head… it made no sense to me… what could I have been thinking about that gave me this particular thought.
“I always prefer the super sexy…”
I quickly began to analyze how I could mean such a statement… and I also quickly discovered that such a statement is not really true in any general sense – I don’t usually prefer the super sexy anything … unless it’s men around me… in which case, I suppose I might just prefer the super sexy…
… so that could have been what was going on regarding thought process: I was thinking of having sexy men in my life… except that I wasn’t… it didn’t sound familiar at all…
So that had me thinking about that in the first place, I wonder?… where did sexy men come from?
And then it hit me, how I got to such a phrase.
“I always prefer the super stretchy yoga.”
That’s what I had said aloud earlier, and that is the phrase where I had paused in my mental review of the conversation… the phrase that had been out on repeat…
And so, I suppose my relaxed mind made easy associations and relaxations of words, as I passively repeated my bookmarked phrase, as has happened plenty in the past… “yoga” and the following phrase dropped off the end… “stretchy” turned slowly into “sexy”… and there you have it: I always prefer the super sexy.
It had me wonder: is that a Freudian slip of sorts?… Was my subconscious mind telling me something within my conscious mind?
Why bother with speaking aloud, when the brain can handle the whole thing on the inside, right?
I don’t know.
But it did make me laugh a whole bunch, when I discovered what had happened… I mean, how often does yoga turn into sexy stuff, eh? 😛