Okay, now I actually broke it. Well, I denied every possibility it had to offer me, anyway.
Pretty darn ridiculous, huh? Haha
I have always held that I am extremely picky. I have genuine and intense standards, and will hold to them. So far, these average men of Houston are not meeting those standards.
And that’s completely okay and entirely perfect. I trust in God and The Cosmos and Energy. When it is time, it will be time. Until that time, it is not yet time. It’s as simple as that. 🙂
I do not claim not to be picky. Indeed, on the important things, I will not settle – I accept only exactly what is perfect, and what is perfect happens also to be exactly what I want.
For example, when I want an apple, there is an image in my mind, on my taste buds, on my teeth of exactly what I want. If it is a deep pink, small apple, with hints of yellow and near-red, then I simply will deny any other apple available to me. It is not snobbery. It is merely being aware of what it is I want – and why I want it, specifically – and being conscious enough to acknowledge that anything else is superfluous. For whatever reason, my body wants that apple. Not a green one; not a red one; not an underripe pink one… that one. Consider the idea of needing a bunch of protein, and someone offers a handful of grass to eat. It just doesn’t make sense to consider the grass as an answer to the need for protein. Whatever is in that apple is only in that apple and in the right amounts.
Now, that might be a somewhat terrible comparison, but it was meant well. ;P
Today, I spent some… time… on Bumble, the dating application. Recall my pickiness with apples and just about anything else in life – I’ve gone years in search of the right shirt and skirt combination, never settling (though, I did recently find the skirt!). Men are no different. What I am seeing in a partner, in a mate in life follows the same guidelines and criteria of either being exactly what I seek or superfluous.
And I think I broke Bumble.
It just kind of… ran out. Of options, I mean. When I had swiped “no” after the who-knows-how-many-hundreth person, the application seemed just to give up, saying, ‘Nope. We don’t have anyone for you right now. Check back again soon.’
Note the following screen:
Yeah. So, that happened. And, even when I closed the application and relaunched it, the screen happened again… and again and again and again.
And so, i accepted Bumble’s quiet yet oh-so-loud message, and closed it up, not even the least bit of concern in my mind. When it is time, it is time. And right now is the time not to bother with the online dating application. Perhaps it never will be again. And perhaps it will be one day. For now, however, my message was clear: Be here, in person, and life will meet me where I follow my heart.
I guess I am signing up for that volunteering next week after all. 🙂
Post-a-day 2021
^Had to think about it again… and I was doing so well! Haha
We enter into the scene at Hannah’s gym, just after she has finished attending the midday workout class… Hannah has received multiple messages from her girlfriend named Devon, regarding Hannah’s being signed up for another dating app while she was in class, because the one Devon used last night to find someone for Hannah to date wasn’t going so well…
Reading the confirmation code messages, followed by the explanation messages from Devon, Hannah is stunned, and can’t tell if she is excited or totally bothered by this new information just given to her, like a post-workout shake… Brandon walks in just as Hannah exclaims with understanding…
Hannah: Ugh!
Brandon: 🤨
Hannah: Devon is signing me up on all these dating apps…
Brandon: 😂
Hannah: Ugh…
Brandon: Well, I guess…. that’s… what friends… are for…🤔
Hannah: 🤦🏼♂️
…….
Brandon: There’s actually a new CrossFit dating app. I just read about it yesterday on Instagram.
…………..
Hannah tells Devon about conversation… Devon’s only and immediate response is, “Ooo I’m gonna find it”…
… cue another face palm for the afternoon for Hannah …🤦🏼♂️
Great day, huh?😂
It really was great, though… 🙂
And, despite the fact that I really am not pro-digital dating and dating applications, I’ve enjoyed considering the possible futures with all these different people – I only cross so many people a day who are eligible for such analysis, and so this is kind of an over flux of brain exercises in the form of picturing a possible future with various good-looking guys.
So, yeah, I am enjoying it a bit… but I’m also not caring too much, and am letting her handle things, you know? 🙂
hannah ananas 