Tag: emotions

Reading

I’ve gotten a good amount done today, given that I went for a miniature movie marathon with a girlfriend for several hours – which was awesome, by the way – yet I had only expected to be about two total. I did some tidying at home and some reorganization that seems to be a step very much so in the right direction. I stayed up way later than intended, but even got a lot of folding and putting away of laundry done, too. And, of course, I had an audiobook running that whole time, which was great use of my time.

Thank you, God, for the accomplishments and the love and friendship of today. Help me to make tomorrow another great day, sharing and living your love and helping to be my best self. Thank you for this life and this man and these opportunities. Please, heal those in need of healing and call to you newly all those who most need you. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Birthday party

Nothing quite like going to a small child’s birthday party and being the only ones who aren’t actual family. And the only ones besides the mom who aren’t Mexican. And we don’t even have any kids of our own yet. But this baby and her big sister feel like they’re part of our family from back when I lived with them for a couple months, so we went to the party across town for a one-year-old. Fortunately, all the family remember us from the last birthday party for the older sister, so it was no biggie today, not even for my man, who didn’t live with any of them, but is just now my future husband, and has thereby absorbed these guys as extended family. 😛

Ridiculous, I know.

Thank you, God, for the love and friendships we have. Keep us all safe, please. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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B-E-D

Today, my best friend came over and is spending the night tonight. She lives in the UK right now (and mostly has since 2009, with a 1.5-year stint in Africa recently), and so is in town visiting family for Christmas, and I get to have her for a day and a half.

After attempting to go to bed a bagillion times, we finally fussed at each other, telling the other to ‘go to bed and stop talking to me’, and rushed away and slammed doors shut, so we couldn’t keep talking to each other. We were getting ready for bed almost four hours ago, and still hadn’t managed it – we could talk forever, if only we had the physical energy for it. But we need sleep, so we had to cut it off and run away quickly before we started yet another conversation.

Thank you, God, for the blessing of C in my life. Can she move to Texas for a while yet, please? In your name, I pray in gratitude and praise. Amen.

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Coming together

Things are, by no means, sorted. However, they are beginning to come together. Little by little – 少しずつ sukoshi zutsu – they are starting to solidify, and possibilities are starting to make sense. As a result, my stressed panic has begun to lessen, and today specifically. We have lots to accomplish, but a big part has been just getting research done and finding certain things that we need. Today, we got a good handful of research done. Sure, there’s still a whole mound of it in waiting, but the first parts can be the hardest, as it all is still so new and unfamiliar. By the end of today’s research, I had a decent handle on several things about which I had previously known next-to-nothing.

So, progress. Today has been good in that sense. Yes, we had some yelling and crying and lots of frustration and ache. And we also had some important and valuable conversations that seem to have accomplished much on their own. We are growing, and we are doing it together. And we aren’t perfect yet. 😛

Thank you, God, for today’s many accomplishments. Keep my man safe, please, and me, too. Help us always to grow together and with you, and through you and each other. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Christmas

According to Facebook Memories, it seems I watched Christmas Vacation on 19 December… multiple times… though, I have never once planned it that way. Nonetheless, it seems to have happened as an unconscious tradition to watch the film on the same day each year.

Continuing with that, again unintentionally, I even had my yearly father-daughter date with my dad to watch the film over lunch today. So, I kept with the tradition without even knowing it, same as each year up until now.

The big question is, however, now that I know, will I aim to continue it intentionally???

Thank you, God, for this day. Amen.

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Boots and belts

Today, for the second time, I went to a warehouse scratch-and-dent sale for this boot company that I love, Tecovas. I was going simply to meet my mom and stepdad and see if he might be able to find a pair of boots – his first pair of western boots, actually – for the upcoming rodeo season. He’s on a committee with us all now, so he needs to have at least one pair for the shifts he works for the committee.

Anyway, I went for them, grabbed some things to keep them available while waiting on them to arrive, since I live much closer, and I also grabbed a few belts for my man’s and for me, since the belts were half the price today that they had been Friday. Eventually, they arrived, and my stepdad liked and bought a very nice pair that I had grabbed for him. (When he tried them on and walked around, my mom and I both were impressed with how nice it made him look as a whole – what we wear truly does make a difference!) I was there an hour before they arrived. Then we three spent about forty minutes working on my stepdad’s boots.

However, it took me another two hours before I left. Why?

Because I asked my man about a pair of men’s loafers.

He got too stressed, so, yet again, I got to wait at this sale while he went to the regular store beer our house to try on boots in the store in order to confirm fits and sizes. And yes, you read that correctly. We did this already on Friday for a couple hours. One benefit, though, was that prices dropped while I was waiting, so we got them all for even less than they already would have been at the already-amazing prices.

Eventually, however, after four hours of being in the store with no bathrooms (because it’s a pop-up shop situation, not a real store), I left with, for the price of one pair of boots new at the store – approximately $300, though they are $600-$700 comparable quality – one pair of loafers, two pair of men’s boots, and five very nice leather belts belts. Not bad. Not bad at all.

I actually had a really great time doing it all, too. I also noticed how much I like to help people. I was consistently either chatting with a waiting person or helping people find what they were seeking or, get this, helping to organize the products. I even went through all the women’s belts to confirm that all but a few were size XS, pulled the few out and set them next to the huge plastic bins, and then adjusted the sign that read S to read XS, and split the XS belts in the two bins evenly. Yes, I pulled out a pen from my bag to write the X on the sign, very similarly to how they were adjusting all the signs around (one-time paper signs, you see). So, anyway, I had a good time helping people. And I also found great satisfaction and delight in getting things for someone that are both useful, solid quality, wanted, and a treat all in one.

Thank you, God, for such a lovely start to the day today, and thank you for the lovely continuation and finish it has had. Thank you for this beautiful life. Please, heal those in need of healing and help them to ask for healing and forgiveness in all ways. Thank you for this love I receive. Please, keep my man safe. In your name, I pray. Amen.

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Thickheadedness

My brother comments on how he didn’t realize the message I’d sent to the family was a save-the-date for our wedding. Why? As I said to him tonight after dinner, if he ever actually called his sister and had an actual relationship with her, he would have known already all about it, even before the text… I wasn’t mean, of course, but I also wasn’t wrong, and he knew it. 😛 He always stops being a good family member whenever he starts dating someone. As silly as it sounds, that’s okie thing I actually really liked about his wife before – she usually made a clear effort to keep him in touch with us. She didn’t let him disappear, and thereby had a large role of her own in my life, in all our lives…

Anyway… addiction really sucks.

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Creating an image, or creating stress

We still haven’t created our wedding and reception and honeymoon, so it has become increasingly stressful for me to arrange the details of them. If we had a clear image of what we’re aiming to achieve, it’s be easy to figure out how to meet that image. But I’m currently working only on what I have created, and then on what my man throws out suddenly in disagreement with upset. Not a successful method for accomplishing things, and definitely not one for accomplishing them with joy, love, and ease.

God, help us, please, to create the wedding and reception and honeymoon we both truly long to have. Help us to see clearly what we want, and to communicate that clearly, effectively, and promptly. Help us to find exactly what we need for all of this. Thank you for this opportunity. Keep us safe, please. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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This dog

She is such his dog, it’s ridiculous. She clearly likes me and all, of course. But she loves him, is obsessed with him. When he opens the door for her to let her out of her room, she jumps for joy at him and rubs up against him and all. When I get home first and go let her out of her room, she barely acknowledges my presence, and sprints to the back door to go outside and look for him. She genuinely stands there, staring at the space where his car belongs, unsure of what to do, now that she sees he isn’t home yet. And when he isn’t home at bedtime, like tonight, and I go to bed, I am super nice and invite her into the bedroom with me and pet her and all, and go to bed. Within ten minutes, though, she is inevitably up and trying to get out of the room, presumably to go wait for him to come home. It’s ridiculous.

She so obsessed with him, though I guess it takes off the pressure of my being so obsessed with him, and makes me seem less weird to him… maybe… haha 😛

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