Okay, yay – this is exactly what I have wanted and needed these past several weeks.
I wanted a more definitive feel for the situation, and I now have it.
Sure, I totally cried really hard for a while, but it was what I was wanting… truly.
Now, I’m clear that it isn’t happening and that it isn’t meant to be (for now, anyway, but that’s good enough for me to be at ease about it).
I said what I felt I needed to say to let it go, and I am starting to be filled with this feeling of breathing deeply, and as though I hadn’t experienced such breathing for ages, somehow.
It really is nice to breathe…
And, though it is an extreme disappointment that things are not working out as I had hoped, even wished, I have full faith in the World, in the Universe, in God… there is absolutely something better on the horizon.
This was an opportunity for me to learn, and I definitely have learned much from it… definitely.
(And I do not mean just a bunch of surface-level nonsense, but true and deep insight into myself and who and how I want to be and when and how I can be at my best, and what that means in terms of the people who are around me [on many levels] and the relationships and interactions we all have with one another.)
Yes, this has been quite valuable.
And I am so grateful to be able to let go now of the stress I was building within me because of it all…
Yes, it is lovely to begin to breathe freely again.