I have started another song.
But this one is quite different from the other five so far.
This one…, well, this one has asked me to write it.
I don’t know how else to explain it.
I had asked, “Well, what do I write next?”
I already had an answer: I was going to continue along the same mental path that four of my songs had been following already – the silly path of almost love-life that I recently had.
But then, just before bed one night, before I had begun in my next song, a bought came to me… it was not particularly comfortable or desirable, so I allowed it to be merely a thought among many, and I let it go.
The next night, the thought returned, but it brought a couple or few phrases with it… They were so strong that, thought I had let them all go, when they kept coming back over and over again as I tucked myself into bed, I got back out of bed, and I wrote them down.
There, I seemed to say, Now you can let go of this idea, and move on to other things.
But it kept pressing the next day, when more lines came to mind.
I loyally added them to the page.
Then things happened… things that connected to this song idea, but that had happened on their own, from outside sources… a phone call from a friend, and something mentioned in that conversation… and action from me that seemed to have no spark of origin, but that, in a way, connected deeply with the topic of this song… and then, as I went to add another line that was pressing my brain, an unexpected phone call received, and, somehow, the exact topic brought up…
I am not scared, exactly… there just is likely to be little room for error on this song… and there will be lots of room for judgment… on this song, I am not only writing to share music, but to make a difference for others by sharing… I do not want other people’s potential resulting opinions of me to dissuade me from doing a spectacular job of that.
Yes, I want this to be inspiring and relieving for those who need it most.
For those who do not need it, I want it to help them to think twice about those in their life who just might be needing it right now, or who might have needed it st some point, but who did not get it then.
Yeah… I think that’s it… that’s the goal of this song.
And it feels heavy…
God, help me carry this weight – I want to carry it to its next stop, and hand it off.