Tag: future

With Supernatural Speed

Dear God, we ask, through your love that you have granted to us, that this paperwork be handled and approved and granted to us with supernatural speed. As C— prayed, give all those involved in the process and on whom others must wait an inexplicable need to complete their portion effectively and with haste – wake them up in the middle of the night to go complete their portions. Help them experience an urgency with this process for us, that we may pursue fully and live the life you have so graciously offered to us. We wait with patience, yet anticipation for the beauty we will be able to create, especially once this paperwork is granted in our hoped-for direction. If it be your will, please, complete all necessary steps of this process, and grant us the declaration we long to receive. In your name, we pray. Amen.

P.S. Please, heal us all. We’ve got some sick bodies right now, even with our friends. Heal us all, please, all in need of healing. Amen.

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Prayers

Dear God, please, let our prayers be received and answered directly from tonight. Thank you for this blessing of life. Help us to live this life with full abandon in you, that we be our best selves, the people you made us to be. Help us to marry as we long to do, a longing given to us powerfully and blessedly by you. Set clear our paths, that we do spectacular things in your name in all that we are and all that we do. Help us to live the lives of our dreams and better, and help us to have always better dreams, wrapped up in you. In your blessed name, I and we and we all pray. Amen.

P.S. Please, make that paperwork happen – give each person involved and inexplicable urgency to do your will with it immediately. Grant us this space to create this life you now have offered to us, and now. In your name, we pray. Amen.

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It’s all in your head

The chiropractor literally rearranged the bones on my head today. The bump in the middle of my head (on top) has moved about an inch backward and to the right side of my body. I have divots in spots where I’ve never had them before. It feels almost like a shelf on top on the back right now – I actually dislike the shape of that part right now – and I, generally, do not recognize my own skull whenever I run my fingers through my hair.

It is a very, very weird feeling.

However, my head feels light in a way I cannot recall having ever felt it. It feels like pounds of weight have been removed fro my face and skull, weight I hadn’t even noticed was there, until it had been removed. I hope and suspect the bones will continue to shift in the coming days, possibly weeks. I see the chiropractor again twice in the next week and a half, which likely will include more work on the skull.

She asked me if I had had an accident in which I’d hit my head, because of how everything was sitting. I told her that I hadn’t had any that I knew. Since starting to see her, I have recalled that I had not just one but two traumatic bangs of the head, and one third bang that was possibly also a factor in all of this. All of them were by the age of 11, the most traumatic being the last of them.

(Keep in mind that these were not concussions or anything, but were still hard hits that messed with my muscles and bones. I didn’t not receive any medical treatment that I’d needed at the time. It was merely the kind of stuff that gets brushed off once the bump goes away for two of them. For the third, I went to the ER. It took so long for them to see me, though, that my mom had worked out the intense pains and problems – she’s a massage therapist and does energy work and all – before a doctor ever even looked at me. The slammed-shut jaw was no longer stuck shut, and I could talk normally and without pain again, so they sent me home. Anyway, I’ve some interesting things to consider these next several days. And yes, it is literally all in my head. Haha

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Roughness

Sometimes, I bite my nails, because they’ve grown too long, and I can’t seem to stand them another minute… and they end up being all rough and uneven around the edges. And then they catch on things a bunch, including my skin and face, until I bite them some more and/or eventually find a nail file and file them down to where I’d wanted them to be in the first place.

It seems an utterly ridiculous struggle to have, yet I face this struggle regularly and often. I have reminders on my phone, telling me to do my toenails and my fingernails at certain increments of time that I figured out were accurate about a year or so ago. And yet I still struggle more than half the times with availing cutting them and ending up biting them down out of annoyance a week or so later (al while my phone still displays the message telling me to trim and file my nails).

I haven’t quite gotten to the root of the struggle, as we can all see by my consistent struggling with this same issue. It seems like it must be an easy solve, if I just gave it a bit of actual time and attention again. Or followed my reminders like I once did. Nonetheless, a ridiculous struggle continues.

And it has me wonder: How many other ridiculous struggles am I having in my life right now? How many other seemingly rough situations actually have a simple solution, for which I need only give it some genuine attention and effort and consistency?

Likely loads…

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Good day

Today was a good day, a beautiful day. The weather was lovely, even with the bout of rain in the late afternoon and early evening.

My friend got done shopping she’d much needed, some of which was entirely without her child, because he hung with me in the toy section and played with toys. (Whenever he said that he needed his mom, I told him that we could go find his mom as soon as he was finished playing. Did he want to stop playing and go find his mom now, or keep playing? “Keep playing.” And, so, he did… the whole time we were in that store! I can only imagine the relief she had in being able just to shop, and not also manage a two-and-a-half-year-old.) I made smoothies that were actually good-tasting and good for us, and we all actually enjoyed drinking them, the child included. The kid woke up in the first place feeling loads better, and, therefore, in a much-improved mood and attitude.

My man spent about half an hour plus in the back yard with the kid, letting him help with chores and just follow my man around to look at whatever he was doing. Some chores were genuine. Others, not so much. e.g. he was ‘mowing the lawn, too,’ by riding around on the little tricycle in circles around the fire pit… on the brick… where there was no grass. 😛 It was absolutely adorable watching the two of them out back. The three of us inside were enjoying our awesome meal in comfort and peace, all while admiring the good practice my man was getting for our own future as parents. I can hardly wait for him to be the amazing father it is so clear he can be and will be.

Yes, today was a good day, a very good day.

Thank you, God. Amen.

Fitting in

I’m starting to turn into them…(!)

Although, now that I think about the specifics, perhaps it is just becoming clear that I always was one of them… hmm… haha

Tonight, instead of going to bed well before 10pm, as fully expected and planned, I got caught up working on a coding project. I had to build a landing page that adjusted well to different screen sizes. It’s one of the final projects in the whole section on web design for my course. I decided a while back to have fun with the projects, whenever I’m having to make most of it up, anyway. For the half-existing things where I just edit or add bits, I don’t do much personalization, if any. No need there. But, if I’m basically making it all up, anyway, I want it to be something I’ll enjoy and actually want to show someone else, you know?

Anyway, so I was making this page for ‘a club, real or imaginary.’ I happened upon an idea that I loved, shortly before my planned bedtime… like twenty minutes before it. Next thing I knew, it was two and a half hours later, and I was still working on the project. It was definitely progressing, and well. But I was 100% not in bed.

Instead, my man made me some seared tuna – I know – after it thawed half an hour, and then I worked even more. At about 1am, I had finished my project and shown it to my man, and was finally heading to bed… only four+ hours later than planned…

I felt like I was finally starting to be like all the other nerds who end up having that late night, ‘because I was working on some coding,’ and/or, ‘and I really wanted to resolve this one part.’ I did that tonight, and not for the first time. But it was the first time I had a full product at the end.

However, I already do this with things. I already stay up late just to finish something up, even if it isn’t even time-sensitive. I’ve basically always done this, until I started occasionally forcing myself to go to bed, everything left to be done tomorrow, so I could wake up early for the gym.

So, this was nothing new for me… except that it finally was for coding stuff.

And that’s the really fun part.

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Bedtime

Not doing great with the idea of getting to bed early and getting up early and going to the gym this week, but I have gotten up earlier than I had been getting up, and I have done the full workout at home just after getting up both mornings. And I’ve gone to bed a bit earlier than I had before (not counting last week, that is.) So, there’s a positive there.

More work to be done, more improvement to be had. For now, I bid you a good night.

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At-home stuff

I haven’t much liked working out on my own in the past. However, there has been something about it this past week that has changed my mind a bit. I think the music at the gym has gotten too loud for me to want to be there so often, and the classes are sometimes too full for me; it has become a bit of a drain on me emotionally and social just being st the gym, I think. It’s almost like it has been overwhelming, in a way… just too much stimulation to be going five days a week. Even four days is a bit tough, it seems.

I think I am doing these workouts at home in large part due to the fact that I can stay away from all of that external stimulation and not have the shock it provides, let alone the reset and quiet time and relaxation it demands afterward for me. The mental disruption from classwork was already enough of a struggle before, but it has become increasingly obvious that the overwhelm of the scenario itself has become a bit much for me lately.

Perhaps working out at home once or twice a week will be all I need to get myself exercising five to six days a week again. I can still go to the gym three or four times, that way, and get that extra push from having folks do the workout with me. But I might strategize a bit and pick my classes as the lower-attended ones most weeks.

I’m wondering if this might just make a huge difference for me and my fitness and workouts, as well as productivity…

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A different day

It was very difficult to get out of bed this morning. Very difficult. I didn’t make the first workout’s alarm, as I was way too heavy with exhaustion. However, I snoozed the second workout’s alarm twice and then got myself up before it went off the third sounding… something like that. It might have been only one snooze… Whatever the case, it took a lot of effort to get up, even then, but I did it and I exercised.

Afterward, I made breakfast tacos for me and for my man, and I even weight and measured for his macro and calorie counts for his food. Then, though I wanted to sleep, I showered and got to work on my coding courses. Early afternoon, while he went to the gym, I finally lay down for a nap for about an hour. I needed it at that point, as my brain was starting to take breaks all on its own.

Afterward, I got back to work. One of the things I learned in the history but I was reading was about the original NASA computers – real people who did mathematical computations, before machines existed for it – and about the original IBM used at NASA, which took up an entire large room and required a whole slew of people just to make it work at any given time. It was a massive advancement at the time, though it is comical to consider that it could do less than just about any digital device we have today.

Nonetheless, reading that bit of history finally put me over the edge for wanting to see the movie it briefly referenced, “Hidden Figures”. I’ve known about the movie since it came out in 2016, but never quite worked up the full desire to sit and watch it. But now was the perfect time. I could appreciate – and understand! – so much more about it now than I would have even several weeks ago, let alone years ago. The movie was quite cool and was well done. Though, my man and I both chuckled at the part where a new reporter in the film said some absolute bogus info, stating the craft and man, Alan Shepard, would be traveling “at an altitude of 116 miles per hour.” Because altitude is measured in miles per hour, and all… 😛 That was rather funny to us, and we both enjoyed that we both caught it, especially since it was more of a filler kind of shot than a main one.

Anyway, I’m really glad we watched the film tonight. Now, however, I just go to sleep. Much more to do tomorrow! (Including that 7:30am workout that I always dread, somehow. Haha)

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